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III) Madness Can Take This FormI learned from Aesthetic Realism that once a person feels he has a right to be superior--and gets pleasure from that feeling, he will, unconciously, want that pleasure to extend. And once we associate our own "glory" with being superior to other people, we are in danger of hurting not only ourselves, but the people we know--even the people we think we are closest to. That is what happens with Sergeant Keita. Telling himself he is "educating" his village, he takes actions which trample on their feelings. For example: without even speaking to his father, he takes the sculpture which embodies the Keita family's spirit, the "Nyanaboli," and throws it to the village dogs. It is a high-handed and brazen act. We feel Keita's contempt has crossed a certain line; that his arrogance has taken on a new intensity. Later that evening, Sergeant Keita goes out of his mind. This is how Diop presents it: Keita is leaning against a tree, inveighing against everyone in his village--young and old--when suddenly: More often than beings Hear the voice of fire Hear the voice of water Listen in the wind to the sighs of the bush This is the ancestors breathing. And one result of wanting to run away from ourselves--from our own ethical and critical opinion of who we are, and how justly we are meeting the world outside ourselves--is that we can give ourselves frightening obsessions, such as Keita has, as he, in his insane state, hears the ancestors breathing around him. IV) What Does the World Deserve From Us?As I read this part of Diop's story, it moved me very much, and made for large gratitude. Like Sergeant Keita, and like many people, I once did not listen to other people deeply--family or friends. And the reason, I learned in Aesthetic Realism consultations, was that I had come to the contemptuous conclusion that I had nothing important to learn from them--in fact, that they existed to learn things from me! As a means of encouraging me to take better care of my life, my consultants suggested that I take part in three conversations that week, each at least a half-hour long, in which I was to say nothing and simply listen, with as much respect as I could, to what other people were saying. Just hearing this kind suggestion, my life began to change and become better and more integrated. Here I was, a young musician, hoping to become a good composer, but I hated listening! The contradiction was not healthy for me--either as man, or as a musician. And when I did what my consultants encouraged, I enjoyed myself deeply. Instead of conversations being battlefields--which I too much had made them into all my life; battlefields in which I tried to have victories over other people by showing them I was smarter than they--I began to see vividly how much I had lessened myself by robbing myself of what I could learn from other people. "Any time we have a chance to like something and don't take it, we ourselves miss something," Eli Siegel writes in the "Preface" to Self and World (Definition Press, New York l989). And he continues: V) This is What Contempt Does to MindThey are in the darkness that grows lighter . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . They are in the trembling of the trees In the moaning of the woods In the water that runs In the water that sleeps They are in the hut, they are in the crowd. The dead are not dead. Listen to things
In the darkening wood Above the cursed drums, Black night, black night! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Fear lurks in the hut In the smoking torch In the orphaned river In the weary, soulless forest In the anxious, faded trees . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Black night, black night! "A large purpose of Aesthetic Realism," Eli Siegel writes in the "Preface" to Self and World , "is to have a person make up his mind as to the value for him of contempt and respect." And he continues: "Only through aesthetics as the oneness of opposites can he do this." Mr. Diop's story--while not as great as some things in world literature dealing with insanity--does have, in my careful opinion, true aesthetics. Like an tragedy from ancient Greece, it terrifies us, and uplifts us. "Contempt," Eli Siegel so magnificently explained, "is the great failure of man." And what is man's great success? It is the state of mind from which art arises: the powerful hope to like the world, and see meaning and beauty in it. That state of mind--healthy, honest, free, life-giving--is what the study of Aesthetic Realism can make for. That study is the future happiness of mankind.
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